“Just keep going” is the phrase that I keep repeating to myself. You see, right now, all I want to do is give up. I am tempted to throw in the towel on my dreams and settle for something mundane. I want to pack up my belongings, move somewhere else, and reinvent myself because things are hard right now. Almost nothing right now is easy and it feels like I’m fighting an uphill battle.
But instead of turning around and retreating, I’m choosing to dig deeper.
Deeper with God
Lately, I haven’t been feeling as close to the Lord because I’ve allowed myself to become distracted. It’s in the little things like missing a church service, skipping reading my Bible, watching another episode, and focusing more on work than the more important matters. But He’s been so sweetly beckoning me back to Himself. And cutting out distractions and running to Him is like returning home after you’ve been away for a while.
But there’s always a moment of hesitancy before coming back. Questions of worthiness and the voices of guilt and shame whisper loudly in my ears. I wonder if He’ll want to take me back again, which is ridiculous because He always does, but that doesn’t stop me from listening to the lies for just a moment. Then I remember Truth: