When God Changes the Desires of Your Heart

February 16, 2017

When God Changes The Desires of Your Heart

This may come as a shock but when I first got married I vowed never to have children. Not that I have anything against kids but I didn’t grow up amidst them and I was a career woman, focusing my skills and time on copy writing. Until…

God Changed My Heart

Our weekly Bible study which we hosted at our home began our journey through the Book of Genesis. By the end of the 52-week study (yes, it was that in depth!) the Lord impressed upon me that I should have children (yikes!). I was a young married woman with dreams. What of that?

So, I told the Lord before I went to bed that night, that if He wanted us to have kids then He must place that desire in me. I fell asleep disturbed, not quite knowing if I was being irreverent. When I got up the next morning the first thing that popped into my mind was that I wanted to have children. And that I wanted to have five! If I had nightmares that shook me to the core and thus changed my thinking, I didn’t remember it. What I’d recall is that I had such peace overcome me when I got up. But I was afraid to tell my husband (also a career-minded man, although he is now Jesus-minded, thank goodness!)

Sure enough, our first child was conceived a few months later. But if you think that it’s been a rosy road, nothing could be farther from the truth.

A Blessing Gone Bad

A few weeks into my first pregnancy my OB/GYN told me something dreadful. I’d gone to her office to have the usual heartbeat and hormone level check. But this one was different from the first few I had with her. She made me sit down and told me that the baby in my tummy was dead. It had stopped growing and all my hormones levels had reverted to the pre-pregnancy stage She said this was not unusual. Many women have miscarriages, in the first months. I was still young, and could try again after a few months.

She also explained that if I chose not to have a DNC (a cleaning out of the remnants of the baby parts etc. that may still be lodged inside me, or an induced abortion to clear the womb,) I could get an infection. Complications like this could result in me becoming infertile for future pregnancies. She told me to come back after I schedule the DNC at a nearby hospital.

The miracle I never expected. -> When God Changes The Desires of Your HeartI went home confused and distressed. Why did God want me to obey him, put a change and a desire in my heart, have a baby, only to result in this? But the same God that lives in me and placed that desire walked me through my ordeal. In a still small voice He reassured me not to have the DNC. In obedience I went back to the OB and told her my decision, to her disappointment.

The Miracle I Never Expected

A few weeks later when I went to the OB again and she checked me, to see if I got an infection etc, she calmly told me, she didn’t understand it, but the baby had started growing again. I almost fell off the chair!

If I had followed her advice my first-born son would never be.

Was it a rosy road for my husband and me after that? Far from it. But that’s another blog post altogether. I did learn one important lesson, though.

That when we can hear God we will always do the right thing. And that He can be trusted, no matter what the circumstance. The enemy of our soul comes to steal, to plunder, to kill, but we have a living God who nudges us to safety, to hope, to goodness, and to life, more abundant… just as Jesus said in John 10: 10.

One verse the Lord reminded me again and again in our walk is, “If He is for me, then who can be against me?” (Romans 8:30) So true, indeed. Hallelujah.

So, did the Lord give me the desires of my heart? I leave that for you to answer.

Where is Your Heart?

Has God ever changed the desires of your heart, or do you have a testimony of God’s goodness? Share it with us in the comments below.

Until we meet again, my fellow Believer in Christ, the Lord shower you with His everlasting and overpowering love.

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11 Comments

  • Reply Heather Hart February 16, 2017 at 8:29 am

    Sometimes God shows up and does miraculous things, other times He remains silent, but no matter what happens, He is good. I’m always reminded of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. When they went into the furnace, they said God was able to deliver them from the furnace, but if He didn’t they would still worship Him alone. That’s the kind of faith I want. The kind that believes God can do anything, but a willingness to worship Him regardless of the outcome. That sounds like the kind of faith you had during your pregnancy. Thank you so much for sharing your heart with us.
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  • Reply Liz February 16, 2017 at 3:13 pm

    Beautiful and strong testimony! God is so amazing! I was in the Army. And I was young and single when I deployed to Bosnia where I encountered women sho had to leave their 120 day old babies for the deployment. I knew then and there I could never be both a mother and a Soldier. It was several years before I met my hubby and got married, but we faced huge decisions about our future. Ultimately, I left the service because God made me a woman, equipped to grow and nurse and new life, and my husband and I wanted children. Thanks for sharing your story!

    • Reply Heather Hart February 28, 2017 at 9:48 am

      It’s amazing how much God can transform our hearts when we seek Him. Thanks for stopping in!
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  • Reply Tiffany Parry February 17, 2017 at 1:04 pm

    Wow, Emma – God moved in your life so powerfully. God changed my heart around having kids too – but in the opposite. I wanted two or three and due to a near-death complication during my pregnancy, God showed us that one child was what He had chosen for us. He’s 14 now and I love our life. God is so faithful and always right on time to write His plans over us. So glad to visit as your neighbor at the Grace & Truth linkup today.
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    • Reply Emma Right February 17, 2017 at 2:13 pm

      At the end of the day, it’s not about the number of children. sadly, I know of Christian families who felt bound that they must have more than 2 or 3 or more but in the end they were not equipped to help their children get to know Jesus and many of their children turn away. from Christ. i can only imagine how painful this must be for them. If each of us walk so closely to God that we can hear the Holy Spirit HE will guide us in all things–from having children, to where to eat for dinner-I’ve heard of stories of Christian who end up in XYZ Diner and sat next to someone who needed to hear about Jesus!

  • Reply Ruth February 18, 2017 at 10:59 pm

    I love your story and how God spoke to you and how He overrode the advice of the OB-GYN.
    Thanks for sharing. 🙂

  • Reply Andrea February 21, 2017 at 4:09 am

    I’m always amazed as to how God is changing me from day to day and from glory to glory 🙂
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  • Reply Amy Hagerup February 21, 2017 at 9:35 am

    This is powerful Emma. God is so amazing. Praise God that you listened to Him. I’m so glad He put in your heart to have children.
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  • Reply Andrea February 28, 2017 at 3:29 pm

    I’m thinking about when I first accepted Jesus, that I was still going rock and roll concerts – and He changed all that!
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  • Reply Maria Hass February 28, 2017 at 10:49 pm

    That’s a beautiful testimony! I can relate! I know God has changed my desires more than once. First to have kids, then to turn my heart toward them. I remember being at a conference, worshipping and crying, asking God to give me a dream or a vision -something to look forward to, something to desire to do for His Kingdom. At the end of it, my friend asked me, “What did you get?” I responded with (in sobs) “Nothing! Apparently all I want to do is be a stay at home mom and homeschool my kids!” I felt bummed like God didn’t want me to be a missionary or an evangelist. But within a few months I lost my job and my kids were having a tough time in school, so much so it was breaking my heart. God reminded me of my “dream”, I realized that’s where the desire came from, He was using me to minister to my own children before I tried ministering to the world. This has turned my life around. Thanks for sharing!
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    • Reply Emma Right March 3, 2017 at 12:15 am

      Yes, Maria. We can always depend on HIS goodness. But the story doesn’t just end here to us…His goodness really super abounds.
      Emma

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