It’s mid-week again with all its hustle and bustle. The weekend sped by with goals unmet and things left undone. My mental list checks off folding laundry, keeping up with dishes, making meals, spending time with family.
Yet, there is always something I’m beating myself up over. Those areas that still need to be cleaned out and organized. A quilt half-sewn. Looming writing projects, the books I feel pressing on my brain with their story lines, or the devotional book I need quiet and prayer time to delve into.
I am forever second-guessing the choices I’ve made or what I did yesterday. Was it enough?
As I look back on 2016, I see a year of regret. And I don’t want to live there anymore.
Once my husband confronted me about how I never measure up to my own expectations. He asked if I would ever put those same tasks onto someone else, anyone else. Something to think about.
My mindset cripples me.
I refocus again on God’s blessings and not my supposed lack of accomplishment. God has opened up doors and new opportunities at my job. My children are doing well and are healthy as is my husband. Our marriage is strong despite working opposite shifts.
Thinking back over the past months, there are several things I never regret:
Being present to my family (mentally, not just physically).
Time in God’s Word.
Healthy food choices.
Time spent writing.
Being a good steward.
So where do regrets come in and how do I combat them?
This morning it was pouring rain. However, over the downpour, I heard a little bird singing her heart out as day was breaking. It reminded me of the scripture:
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” (Matthew 6:26)
And we see in Luke 10:38-42 the story of Martha and Mary and Jesus’ advice:
“As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, ‘Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!’
“’Martha, Martha,’ the Lord answered, ‘you are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.’”
Jesus said, “few things are needed.”
Wow. How many items are on my list that aren’t needed? What am I rushing to and from? Am I not worth more than a sparrow? How much is getting stolen from the days of my life, for the way of my thoughts harbors condemnation towards myself.
“The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.” (John 10:10)
Jesus also said above, “only one thing is needed.”
What is that? What was Mary doing?
She was sitting at the Lord’s feet listening to what He said. (!!) Revelation. That’s my first order of business, listening (reading) God’s Word. Praying, talking to God. And asking to be led by the Holy Spirit.
My prayer is for you and I to live today abundantly. That we would cast off condemnation and rest in the love of Christ. In the midst of all of our to-do’s, He is the one who will center us and guide our steps so we can live a life without regrets.