Grace and Truth Link Up

Before you do anything,
    put your trust totally in God and not in yourself.
    Then every plan you make will succeed.

Proverbs 16:3 TPT

After having a migraine every day for three and a half years, I’ve finally gotten some relief. My head still hurts every day, but nothing like it use to be… well, most days that is.

My problem is that I’m feeling so much better, I want to complete everything I haven’t been able to do. So I’m trying to do 3.5 years of work in a month.

Let’s just say, it’s not going well.

It’s Heather’s week to do Gace & truth today, but I’m stepping in because she’s swamped. And I’m able to step in because I took off work today. She’s swamped, and I took off for the same reason: to write a book. 

Intracranial hypertension is a rare brain disease characterized by too much fluid pressure inside the brain. It’s the industrial vice grip my Dad has on the farm, only clamped onto my brain – not my skull – my brain, so the pressure feels like my eyes might just pop out. 

It’s the pressure that brought me to the lowest point in my life, the place where I even considered ending it altogether. 

Faith is not a feeling.

It isn’t.

The definition of faith is: “complete trust or confidence in someone or something.”

When I’m swirling in a perfect storm of anger and hurt, all I want to do is run away where no one will know to cry and scream as loud as I can until I have no tears or voice left.

I’ve actually done it more than once. I fled to my car, drove to a deserted field, and returned home with a headache and a sore throat. And the none the better for my little tantrum.