“No Worries,” the text read.
I was clueless, so of course, my first thought was, should I be worried?
My husband and I had been texting, but I had a massive migraine. It wasn’t the first time that day that I had forgotten what was going on. At some point that morning my head hurt so bad I laid down to take a nap… I don’t know when. I know I ate breakfast and took a shower, but I don’t remember in what order or if I did anything else.
At this point, I think it’s safe to say my memory impairment is getting worse.
Thankfully, I was able to look back at the texts we had already sent and refresh my memory. Even though they were only a couple of minutes old. My momentary panic was over. Everything was fine.
P.S. People say, “No worries,” all the time as a way to respond to something that’s not a big deal.
Like, “I haven’t heard from so and so yet.”
“Okay, whatever… no worries.”
I was talking to a friend today about my memory loss. This friend also has some health issues that cause some minor memory loss. Anyway, I mentioned how scary it can be sometimes to realize that you have no clue what is going on. Like in the conversation I mentioned above. Or when you lose an entire day.
Forget My Memory, I’ve Lost My Focus
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Throughout the past couple of years, I’ve been clinging to Jesus. I’ve been trying my best to keep my eyes set on Him.
There was the time that I wanted to give up, but I let Jesus call me out of the boat. And I have been steadily moving forward, eyes on Christ since then. Sure, there are times I stumble, but I don’t think I have ever fully dropped my gaze to the waves until now.
But that’s where I have been with this memory thing.
Fighting Fear with Jesus
All I have been able to focus on is what I can’t remember. On what I’ve lost, and what I’m continuing to lose. On what that might mean for my future.
So today, I’m shifting my gaze back to Jesus.
I don’t have any answers. No new revelations. But I’m echoing Peter’s cry, “Lord, save me” (Matt. 14:30).
I don’t know what tomorrow will hold. Or if I will even remember it. But I know I can put my trust in Jesus, no matter what I forget.
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What about you?
The story about Peter walking on water is a popular one. Fighting fear is a popular topic. Books have been written about it. Authors and speakers want to empower women to overcome.
But let’s be honest. Life is hard. The wind and waves that distracted Peter were just as real and scary as some of the circumstances we face in our everyday life.
Have you ever let something real and scary distract you from trusting in Jesus?
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