I talk to so many women online that I feel like I connect with. We think we would be great friends if we just lived closer together. But can I be real with you for just a moment?
I know there are women right here in my community that are just as real that I haven’t connected with.
Partly because I am an introvert and struggle to make friends.
I Am An Introvert
I love to reach out online. Comment on your posts. Reply to your tweets. Post fun gifs and emojis. But in real-life I am reserved.
I’m the quiet one that sits at the back of the room simultaneously wishing she had someone to talk to and hoping she doesn’t have to make small talk.
Face-to-face conversations are hard for me.
The longer I know someone, the better friends we become, the easier the conversations become. But there are very few people who I feel like I can really let my guard down with face-to-face. And even fewer people I feel like I can initiate out-of-the-blue conversations with.
Even just writing this blog post thinking about face-to-face conversations my heart is racing and I’m shaking a bit.
I mean, this is a real thing for me.
I love my online friends. And I love my real-life friends. But the chances of me making new connections in my community are small. The chances of me reaching out to the few real-life friends that I have is also slim.
It’s a struggle that I face.
I Crave Real-Life Connections
It’s not that I don’t want to have meaningful real-life relationships, I do.
I really, really do.
It’s just hard for me to reach out and make those relationships happen.
However, this is something I am praying about.
I think it’s easier to write about struggles we know how to handle than struggles that leave us feeling helpless at the end of the day. Struggles that we know we need to do better at. Be better at.
But ultimately, we just aren’t.
The Love Of Jesus
Which leaves us feeling thankful for the gospel.
Because as much as I want to tell you I will be better at talking to people. As much as I want to tell you I will do better at face-to-face conversations, I know I will fail again and again. But just as sure as I know that, I know that there is grace to be found in Jesus.
That doesn’t mean that I won’t try, it just means that I can rest in the fact that when I fail I can know that Jesus’ love for me will remain unchanged.
He won’t hang His head in shame.
He won’t shake His head and say, “Seriously?! Again??” No, He will hold His arms open wide and welcome me with His amazing grace.
So, here I sit. Thankful for Jesus. Thankful for my online friendships. And wishing I had the courage to reach out and make those same kind of connections in real-life.
What About You?
Are you better at commenting on blog posts and responding to Tweets, or face-to-face conversations? Join the conversation in the comments below!
Are you better at commenting on blog posts and responding to Tweets, or face-to-face conversations?
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