Have you ever thought you were over something and then found out in the worst possible way that you weren’t? That the pain was still very, very real?
Maybe some wounds never fully heal.
I guess I’ll just come right out and say it.
When I was a little girl, I was sexually molested.
I know that’s not something that is unique to me. In fact, it’s all too common.
In Short, Here’s My Story
The police were involved, I went through counseling, but really nothing helped me recover until I began my relationship with Jesus. He healed my heart like nothing else could.
But then earlier this year my world came crashing down.
Someone close to me was involved in something that brought back everything I went through.
I can’t share the details, but the memories have come flooding into my mind.Have you ever thought you were over something and then found out in the worst possible way that you weren’t? Click To Tweet
And honestly… when I was 5 years old, I didn’t understand what was happening. I even had to deal with guilt from thinking it was my fault, that I should have known better.
But now, when the memories surface they are almost unbearable. I have cried more these past months over what happened almost thirty years ago than I ever have before.
And now I’m not just crying over what happened to me, but over the situation that caused it all to resurface.
Yet, Jesus healed me back then, and He is still in the healing business today.
I know that.
I haven’t doubted it for a moment.
Jesus Is The Ultimate Pain-Taker
My heart is breaking because while I know Him, not everyone involved does. At least, I’m not for sure that they do, and even if I ask, sometimes people just give you the answers they know you want to hear… Even if it’s not the truth.
And actions speak louder than words.
I don’t want to judge their salvation, but I also wish I could see the hope of Jesus in their eyes. I wish I could see the healing in their hearts. But salvation doesn’t come with neon lights.
So, I’m left with prayers and tears, and a pain in my heart.
A pain for not just one, but two, little girls who endured such unnecessary trauma. A pain for the women we are becoming and the painful road we have to walk to get there. Pain for the men in our lives who have hurt us, been hurt by us, and who hurt for us. And the women who hurt for us, too. Because I know our mommas have cried for their little girls.
There is just so much pain.
It seems like pain causes a wave of pain that ripples through the lives of the loved ones of those it touches. One harmful act doesn’t just touch the life of the person or people involved, it ripples through their family and relationships for a lifetime.
Yet Jesus is there.
He is the pain-taker.
Jesus took it all upon Himself when He died on the cross.
And that’s what keeps me going.
I know that while life is hard and full of pain, I don’t walk through it alone.
5 Scriptures To Remember When Your Heart is Hurting
“Cast all your care upon him, for he cares about you.” ~ 1 Peter 5:7 (DARBY)
“There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.” ~ Romans 8:1
“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” ~ Psalm 147:3
“Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you…” ~ Psalm 55:22
“They who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles,
they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint.” ~ Isaiah 40:31
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I don’t know where today finds you, but I hope you know you don’t have to walk through it alone either.
I’ve already shared five scriptures for when your heart is hurting and at the bottom of this post I’ve embedded one of my favorite uplifting songs. But what about you? What songs or scriptures do you turn to when your heart is hurting?
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You can read more of Heather’s story in her book, Mirror Mirror… Am I Beautiful? A book she co-authored with Shelley Hitz. Get practical, real-life, biblical advice for the issues today’s teen girls deal with every day… Body Image. Beauty. Fashion. Sex. Dating. Self Esteem. Relationships. And more. Get your copy from Amazon or click here to learn more.
- Note: If you are the mother of a victim of sexual abuse, I encourage you to check out this interview with Deb Butterfield. You are not alone.